I loved it, and at times, I hated it.
Running was an automatic reaction for me ... and a wonderful stress reliever. Looking back, I see that it was a form of therapy at a time when I couldn't identify that I was suffering from depression and anxiety.When I couldn't run anymore due to several stress fractures, it felt devastating. Running was more than just exercise, it had become a part of my identity - that was me, that was what I do ... and suddenly I couldn't run anymore. My primary source of exercise stopped and I tried other forms of exercise to try to replace it.
For The Walk for Depression, I've committed to walk/bike/hike 835 miles. For the past month I've been biking these miles through Wentworth and Westchester, Nova Scotia. Every morning I fall a little more in love with my bike and the journey's that we're taking. I have the same sensation on my bike that I had while running - a sense of freedom. Not just from the day to day stresses and problems, but from the depression and anxiety. It's an amazing feeling.
During my ride I feel powerful and when I return I feel proud.
Proud that I got out of bed.
Proud that I made it up the mountain.
Proud that I've come this far.
If you're having a tough one ... get out and go for a walk. It may take everything that you have ... but it's worth it. Exercise doesn't take away the pain, but it helps to ease it.
I AGREE. I went for a jog with mom this evening. It did make a big difference.
ReplyDeleteBeautifully written and expressed. You may love your bike more every time, but is it okay I love you more with every post?! I'm so proud of you and every step and pedal for this Walk to Washington.
ReplyDeleteSometimes I forget how hard it may be for you to take the step out of bed some mornings...you're amazing!
Well said and well done. I find walking is a managable excercise for daily stress relief. You've inspired me to get my bike out---not so hard on my aching feet---and get re-acquainted with a freedom and exersise I treasured from my youth.
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing.
Proud to get out of bed!
- Steve Slipp
Keep it up Mieke! Don't stop once you hit the 835! Keep on truckin'!
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